Talking to My “Little Self”

Talking to My “Little Self”

With so much happening around us all the time, there is very little time left for the self, let alone time to sit and meditate.  Whilst the stormy energies of the world build momentum, it is imperative that we make time to sit with ourselves and give ourselves some loving attention. Lately, apart from my usual chats with God during my meditations, I have been talking with my “little self.”

As feelings will and do come up it is very important to process them.  Sometimes a knee jerk reaction is to instantly blame something or someone for our feelings, when actually they are being triggered from inside of me and by me.  Someone may say the slightest thing in a certain tone, and that can send me rocketing off.  Yet another person in the room remains unaffected by the same thing.  What does that prove?  That it’s my “stuff” and all to do with me.  I have to take responsibility for it.  It’s not someone’s fault out there and it’s not even my fault, but later on that, it’s about taking full ownership for my own feelings.

More and more I realize that everything that creates a feeling inside me, any feeling, good or bad, pain or pleasure, is my friend and teacher.  It is coming to show me there is some “stuff” I need to look at.

Maybe that’s a feeling of being left out from a conversation, or from a special gift being handed out, or from a party where a few were invited.  Why might I feel sensitive about it?  Because inside that little child has been left out in the past, something is there from childhood and so the pain of that still lingers on.

Another situation could be when someone talks to me with a stringent tone, this might get my back up?  Why?  Because, I have been spoken to like that previously as a child.  Perhaps I mistook the sound and tone as a disapproval, and so now when the same tone is being reflected I don’t like the feeling that comes up in me and more importantly I don’t know how to translate that or deal with it.  Maybe I was bullied at a young age, and so those same feelings emerge of being bullied again today.  A small event can trigger and avalanche of emotions.

There are several examples throughout the day of the different feelings and emotions one goes through, as a result of other’s actions. The true and genuine effort I need to make is to own my feelings. Since those feelings are emerging from within me, then they are totally mine and do not belong to anyone else.  Somehow, it’s easier to blame others for how I feel, that way I don’t NEED to take full responsibility for my feelings.  But taking full ownership of MY feelings, makes me stronger and more in control of myself.

Have you noticed how we talk to little babies? 

We ask questions even though we know they are not going to respond, well at least not with words … their smile or cry tells all.

Have you noticed how we talk with small children?

We ask them …

How do they feel?

What they might like to eat or do?

Whether they are excited that we are going out to the park now?

Why they look so sad, angry, grumpy …

What’s annoying them?

We stop to care and listen … this is what we need to do with ourselves … we need to RE-PARENT ourselves; give ourselves the attention that we did not get in our earlier years.

There is a small child in all of us that has grown up with the body but not emotionally.  There are parts of us that are still child-like, which is why we may be prone to create tantrums.  When we see people fighting and arguing, we say, that is so immature; that is not how adults communicate … so then who were their teachers … other adults.  So what example are we showing each other exactly?

So now, if I really want to take power back into my own hands, I need to take care of my feelings.  One way to do this is to talk to that little child inside.  Sit quietly, so that you give yourself that love, attention and respect you deserve and say to yourself, to those feelings that you are feeling … “I see you.  I acknowledge you.  I feel you… Thank you.  It’s OK … you can go now …”.   Let that little “self feel” heard and then the healing will begin.

Really what I am talking about here is the need to have a good relationship with the “self”.  For that I need to create an attitude of love and learning, about myself, that “little self” inside.  Do I speak with love and respect?  Or am I harsh and critical?  Remember the law of attraction … whatever I am saying or doing to myself inside, will be reflected outside … in my relationships with others.

It’s Time … to talk to my inner self, the “little self” with love and understanding.

© ‘It’s Time…’  by Aruna Ladva, BK Publications London, UK